Yesterday, I texted my good friend Lizzy to see if she knew of any good churches that held Wednesday night Bible study. She said she wasn't sure, but that she was asked to lead a small Bible study for middle school girls at her church that night and to pray for her.
Funny thing is that the first thought that ran through my mind was "I would love to do something like that." My heart and passion has always been for children and young women. For those of you who don't know, I led Bible study when I was in my sorority and it was one of the hardest and most fulfilling things I have ever done and to be quite honest I didn't think I'd have the opportunity to do something like that for awhile.
I kid you not, an hour later, a get a phone call from Lizzy asking me if I would be interested in being a leader. Um... say what? God did you really just open up that door that quickly? Just testament to how God pays attention to all your desires, even the most fleeting of thoughts.
I know the idea crossed my mind, but I have no experience counseling and leading 8th grade girls and I'm not going to lie, I'm kinda in panic mode.
We ALL know what we were like in 8th grade. You feel awkward, don't really know who you are and trying to be someone else, talking about boys all the time, dealing with gossip and bullies, and all kinds of drama.
I feel a little out of my league.
Don't get me wrong, I have talked to young women about very serious and heart wrenching things, but for some reason dealing with younger girls just scares me.
I don't want to come off like I've got it all right just because I'm older. I'll be the first to admit I am a sinner and have messed up and only by His grace have I been forgiven and saved, but at the same time I want to be someone they can look up to and feel comfortable approaching. You have so many doubts about yourself as a person and wonder if you're good enough. Is their another young woman closer to God than me that is more equipped to lead these young women?
My mind has been spinning and I can't stop thinking about it since last night. I'm worried about the time commitment that needs to be made. These girls deserve a leader who can give them their absolute attention and be willing to make a commitment that will lead up to their years in High School.
Just pray that God will give me the wisdom to know what to do. I have a feeling I'm going to do it because the whole situation is just so crazy because it shows God's hand at work, but then what? Am I prepared to undertake something like this?
Pray for me girls. If any of you have led girls in this age group, I'd love to hear your input!